LA-LA LA-LA LAND!!

I don't have much today, since I am functioning in zombie mode. I don't know why since I fell asleep at like 10 and got plenty of rest. Maybe it is because it is still raining outside from the last band coming off of Ernesto and the lack of sunshine is getting to me.

This morning I am on my way to work and I have the radio on and I don't remember what I was thinking about, but I was thinking about it real hard. It was taking a great deal of brain power to get the motors running. So I am off in la-la land and I look over at the building I am passing and am reading the sign to myself.

Bonita Com..........@#$!!!! I realized that I was staring at the building I worked in and was going to drive right by it.......I then had to swerve across three lanes of traffic and make the next light, since I missed the direct turn in area. Luckily I did it safely and the traffic wasn't that bad. Sometimes I wonder how I make it through the day with out any physical damage to myself or others.

Also my son is sooo excited today. He has his first den meeting for the cub scouts tonight. He begged me last week to join and to be quite honest I gladly told him yes despite the fact that it will be putting another dent in my wallet along with everything else. He really doesn't have much time for hobbies with school, awanas and the upcoming season of baseball, but when he does have spare time he is wrapped up in his playstation 2. He has been playing the cutest game called Ant Bullies. Which him playing is fine with me, I think it helps him develop coordination and stuff like that, but being from the south/midwest you realize the importance of learning about nature and understand the benefits. So yeah for him wanting to do it and be excited about it.

Other than that nothing much of importance coming from me today. Look for a picture blog sometime next week.

JUDGE NOT LEST YE BE JUDGED

I am sooooo freakin bored that I don't know what to do with myself. I am stuck in the condo, because of he rain and work is closed today, because well they don't want all the old farts out on the roads trying to come in for their appointments. My kiddos spent the night at their dads last night, so I don't even have them to bug. Granted I am thankful that Ernesto is just a depression now and not a big deal, but damn I am lost. I always have thousands of things to do and I got nothing. The house is spotless, because the kids have been doing an awesome job lately and have been sticking to their chore list. Without complaining I might add. I have no homework, because the semester ended last week and the next one doesn't start up for another 2 weeks. I could watch TV, but I never watch TV so none of the shows interest me. I know I shouldn't be complaining, because in all reality I need this break, but it still sucks being bored.

I have also noticed a little bit of poo flinging the last few days on MySpace and I have to say it is a little ridiculous. I have read quite a few blogs that are solely written to bash someone. I have also seen many comments from others cutting people down. I just don't understand it all really. I mean I thought we were supposed to be adults. My kids are more respectful and less hurtful than some of the people on here and they are kids. We as adults should know better. What is it that causes people to drop 10 levels in maturity and act like they are in grade school? Who gives a shit what anyone does with their life or free time for that matter. It is of no concern to me and shouldn't be for anyone else. It is their life and since we only get one I can't judge others how they choose to fulfill it. Why be so damn judgmental?

We as human beings are all unique. No one possesses all the same interests or qualities. So where do we come up with this norms as to what is cool and what is uncool. Who sets these standards? We do. Why? Who the fuck knows. Are we all just really that bored that we have to act like vultures and jump on the bandwagon just to eat a few scraps of the bullshit?

What gets me is that we sit and say that our country has gone to shit lately. Well yes it has and one of the major problems it that we are divided. We separate ourselves into little groups and attack each other. How about for once instead of talking shit about someone, we try to understand where they are coming from. Try being a little less hateful and judgmental. I know it would be hard, since we are so used to just flapping our gums every time we see something we don't agree with or understand. But if we can't come together as a society we will never be anything more than a country filled with hypocrites and judgmental assholes.

I didn't really plan on semi-ranting about this, but the whole situation rubs me the wrong way. I think it mainly has to do with the fact that this type of crap is what my kids get to look forward to. How am I supposed to encourage them to respectful of others and non-judgmental, when some of the adults in our society can't even do it. How I am supposed to encourage them to be themselves and enjoy their life, when the some of the adults are so damn crotchety and have nothing better to do with their time than pick on others.

People need to stop and think about the things that they are doing and realize that their childish behaviors are more harmful than they think. They need to stop fucking it up for the younger generations. How would they feel if it was their child that was the one that was getting picked on all the time? I guess my point is that hate breeds hate and at some point we need to say enough. Judge not lest ye be judged.

Anyways, now that I have got that out of my system, I guess I will use this time to catch up on some of the blogs I have missed and then I suppose I will watch a movie or something. Hell I might even take a nap.

STUPIDITY HITS

Even though the blogs are acting stupid today and no one will probably see this, I will post it anyways.

So I did something stupid yesterday. I will say that in my defense it is not a common occurrence to exhibit such behaviors, but I like many others do have my moments.

I bought a tent. It has been the topic of discussion between Chris and I for months. Many, many, many months. I am sure many of you don't remember the blog I did on why I dont go camping, but maybe I will repost it in a couple of days. Anyways.....I go into to Target after a meeting I had with.....well.....we shall call him Professor Dickhead.....and I was looking for some kind of bag with wheelies on it for my daughter. She plays percussion in the band and her stuff is just too heavy to carry around all day, so I figured I could find something for her to roll it around on. But no such luck. I searched everywhere and couldn't find anything. Then I thought maybe back in the sporting goods department they might have something so I walk my cranky ass back there and have a gander. Nope, nothing there either, but then something caught my eye. I round the corner and there it is. I can't help but stop and look, because well the price is worth it.

It was a very nice Eddie Bauer 8 person 3 in 1 tent. It could be used as a canopy.........great for the beach, a screen room..........great for throwing all the kids in when they are in punishment and a rather large tent with a door mat outside and some kind of shelving system inside. Over all it was really nice to look at. I don't know about the whole sleeping it in thing though.

I will add I am a pretty fair person and when someone in my family wants to do something or really wants something, I usually give in eventually. But it has to be on my own terms.

So I stood there looking at this beast whilst debating with myself on whether or not to get it. I caved and bought it. It was a good deal and I knew it would make Chris and the kids happy. I am such a dumbshit.

So I get it and take the damn thing home and let me tell you that bitch was heavy. I had to call Chris to come and get it from the parking lot. He was in hog heaven. The hillbilly in him went apeshit over the site of this massive tent and the possibility of camping. He gets it the condo and after an hour he couldn't fight the urge any longer to open that bad boy up and play around with it in our living room. I wish I would have thought to take pictures, because it was truly a funny site. The tent pretty much covered our whole living.

So needless to say the kids and Chris were ecstatic and avidly working on scheduling our first camping experience. It is a very very very very very slim possibility we may go this weekend. We shall see.

On a side note, more than likely I will be off tomorrow because of the storm and the fact that it is going to go right over us, so pray for my sanity. I will be stuck in the house with 3 kids, Chris and the dog.

JUST A FEW THINGS

Just a few quick things today....

First and most important is that it is my telepathically connected friend ~Kristie Lynn's~ birthday.

Please send her wonderful birthday wishes and be sure to give her shit. Every time she gets a food craving she telepathically sends it my way and then I have to eat what ever it is. I personally blame her for the increase in my weight over the last few weeks, because of the choice in foods. But I still love her dearly. Oh and make sure you subscribe to her blogs. They are the best.

Second for those who are freaking out and messaging me because of Hurricane Ernesto. Yes we are under hurricane watch. Yes we live in southwest Florida and yes we will probably be effected in some way. As of right now it is back down to tropical storm, which is nothing. I dont know what it is going to do and neither does anyone else at this point. This year is a little different for us though since we are on the first floor, but we will do our best to prepare. I can tell you that if the winds are bad enough we will lose power, like we do every flippin damn time, but most often since we are the same grid as a fire department, it is on within 24 hours. Losing power means no computer, so for those that are worried at anytime and need to contact me.....you have my number. During and after storms like this, my service does fade in and out, but leave me a message and I will get back to you as soon as I can. I am not worried about this storm and neither should you guys. It is going to be an inconvenience at most.

Lastly the newest edition of The Blue Doodle is up. www.thebluedoodle.com

They have added a comment section on the main page. Feel free to leave a comment there with any of your thoughts.

Here is the link to the next part of my story. I was having a rough week so I will say it is not my best work, but at any rate check it out.

www.thebluedoodle.com/bookoff.html

Also Devil Insides newest is up.

www.thebluedoodle.com/writerpages/devilinside.html

THE EAR

I think a while back I told you all that one of the newest editions to our household was Chris' son's 4 month old pug, "Sam". The funniest thing happened last night and it just so happens to deal with him. Well no it wasnt funny, it was rather traumatizing and I figured I would share with you all so you can laugh at me, like you normally do.

Growing up we always had dogs, in fact we had a great deal of animals. A few farm-like animals, but mainly horses, lots of them, and yes I did ride. But for the record I did not, nor would I ever, wear wranglers. I do have some pretty good horse related stories though, one of these days I will share some.

Anyways, I got way off track there, so as I was saying we have a puppy in the condo. I don't mind dogs; I just get all anal about them being in my place of habitation. I don't like the fact that they drool, relieve themselves, shed and basically wipe their ass all over my carpet. The carpet, mind you, that I walk on barefoot. I don't like having them in the condo and would prefer they be outside doing all of the above, but that is just not a possibility due to where we live. I accepted this dog into our home, because he was part of the package and I understand the attachments that people develop with dogs.

So needless to say, it has been really hard for me to just go with the flow on this, but I think I have done an awesome job. The only thing that sucks is that it is something else that now demands my attention and time. He will follow me around until I acknowledge him and is forever licking the back of my legs, which I sometimes dont realize he is doing, because I will be wrapped up in something else. Some of you may be thinking awww how cute, but it is saliva that he is putting on the back of my legs. So no, not cute. I rarely full out bitch about the dog related things in an effort to make peace with the situation, until last night that is............

As many of you know, or may not know, I don't eat pork. The thought of eating a pig just grosses me the hell out.

So yesterday after getting home from work I start quickly getting the shit I need to get done, before I had to leave for class in 20 minutes. I am walking through the dining room.......I think it was the dining..........well I was walking somewhere in the condo and there it was on my effin floor. A GOT DAMN PIGS EAR. I fully understand that dogs chew on those sorts of thing. We lived out in the "country" growing up and the dogs we had brought rotting corpses up to the house to chew on all the time. Nasty, but a reality of their nature. I just don't want that reality in my DAMN condo on my DAMN carpet. As soon as I seen it and looked over at Chris he must have seen something, because he said he was sorry and didn't think that I would mind. Well "HELL YEAH" I minded. I didn't want that shit on my carpet. To solve the issue he tells me it will be put in the dogs cage and it can stay there. So I say fine and tell he please not to buy anymore of them. Situation resolvedso you would think.

I come home last night after taking the crappiest final ever (isn't that right Sheri) and put my stuff up and start cleaning up and doing other BS stuff. I am over wiping the table off and I hear my name. I dont stop, but say what and continue. Then it happened. My foot touched something. Yes you know what it is, the EAR. A plethora of cuss words went through my head as soon as it happened. I look over at Chris and he said "I tried to warn you, but you didnt listen." So basically I was saying what for the hell of it, I guess.

I think it would have made me feel okay about the whole situation if I could have just burned my foot off, but well then I would have a funky limp and that doesnt work for me. Even right now I am getting the heaby jeabies just thinking about it.

Anyways, apparently last night, the ear never made it to the cage. I swear I think the people in my house know when I am too busy to be able to deal with their shit and they plan to get away with everything at those times. They know that they can be lazy about things, because I dont have the memory capacity to follow up on things.

So last night the ear went in the cage. I even checked before I went to bed and it was there. But I swear if I see it anywhere outside that cage again I am chucking it out the door. Well may I will pick it up with some tongs and fling it out the door, but the other way sounded much cooler.

Just to proove I am not nuts I would like to submit into evidence...........

Exhibit A:

(okay so his eyes are not green and this is a very unflattering picture)

SOMEONE STOP ME PLEASE

This weekend was a little rough on me, so ignore the randomness and babbling that may occur through out this blog. I had so many things going on this weekend, on top of finals, appointments and other stuff. I barely had time to breath, which is probably why I have a fever and a soar throat. Anyways.........

I took one of my finals Sunday afternoon and I take another one tonight. The last one will be on Thursday and I honestly can't wait until this semester is over. I am officially beat. I am in desperate need of rest and my brain needs a little break. I need to take some time off of work as well. My job is too damn demanding right now and balancing that and school and family is becoming more and more difficult. On a lighter note, I only have 3 classes this coming semester and then 2 classes the following semester and I will have my bachelors. Then the real fun begins as I work on my Masters.

I submitted my universal application for Physician Assistant programs in the US yesterday. This was one of the longest and most painful applications I have ever done. It literally took me over a month or so to fill it out. Anyways I did apply to my first choice NSU, which I am guaranteed to get in, but I also applied to Bethel U in Mckenzie, TN. Chris and I have discussed moving before and the hillbilly misses the mountains, so we shall see what happens. I can't say I am overly thrilled about moving and love the tropical atmosphere we live in now, but sometimes sacrifices must be made.

As always the newest edition of The Blue Doodle is up. I would like to say that I really enjoy writing for the doodle and love the group of people that are involved. They are true writers and stick to what writing is all about. After speaking with Amy this weekend, I realized that the writers on the Doodle are not just your average writers. Many of them are involved in some pretty cool things, such as one of them is on HBOs The Wire and I think one is the editor for The New York Times. And I will say that I am disappointed in the drama and harassment that has been recently created for the doodle, by a certain drunken babbling freakin idiot, but that neither here nor there.

I am also surprised by the fakeness that certain people on myspace exhibit. It makes me wonder what kind of a person they are in real life. Don't get me wrong not all people on here are that way, but there are some that just have no dignity or self-respect when it comes to their behavior on myspace. I wonder if they realize just how apparent it is. I do think though that they need a reality check on the fact that just because it is internet, it doesnt mean your morals and values should go out the window. What happened to self-preservation to these people?

Anyways.........babbling will now cease and desist.

If you have time today please check out mine and Amys newest parts in the novel write off on The Blue Doodle. Click the link itself:

www.thebluedoodle.com/bookoff.html

And as always check out Devil Insides latest submission as well.

Click the link itself:

www.thebluedoodle.com/writerpages/devilinside.html

Any feedback on the write off can be left here in the comment section. Oh and before I forget the answers, for those that missed them, for the survey are as follows:

-My favorite color is black

-I am going to school to become a PA

-My first name is Cara

-My favorite kind of music is classic rock

-I moved to Florida from Nebraska

-I write for The Blue Doodle

What do you know?

Yea so I am like everyone else. How much do you really know about me? Take the quiz to find out. If you do one of your own and I haven't already done it, put a link in the comments, so I can do yours.

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Happy Thursday! One more day until Friday!!!!!!

I am not a slut dammit!

So as promised here is the story of my encounter last weekend at Old Navy.

Last weekend I had to take the Chris' boy out to do a little school clothes shopping. As most of you know, I despise shopping. I hate it and only do it if I have to. It is not that I don't like to get new things; I just feel about it the same way that men do. I don't have the time, energy, or patience for it.

Well apparently neither does Dev. Our first store he was so uninterested in finding clothes and had made it clear he would much rather spend his time goofing off and popping wheelies with the cart with my son inside screaming for his life. I tried, on many occasions, to get him to look through the clothes and pick things out, but that would require him taking time away from playing. I even threatened to buy him pink shirts and such, but he saw through my false threats. So what ended up happening was, I searched through racks and racks of clothes, guessing at things he would like and holding them up for him to say yes or no. It was painful..........oh so painful. After all the sifting was done I got a little excited. We had 6 pairs of jeans and a few shirts. That was pretty good. I mean I could go out and buy him more shirts later. He really only needed more jeans. Off to the dressing rooms we go. He goes in and the bastards say only 6 items at a time. I made sure to express to them how ignorant that was and that that meant two trips to try on clothes. I go and sit while he goes in. I figured 6 items, he should be out shortly. I go sit on the bench outside and my daughter goes and starts messing with all the high heels and trying them on and all that crap. My son, who is 7, is going around picking about the most butt-ugly shoes he can find and presents them to my daughter to try on while giggling. This goes on for 5 min.....10 min.....15 min.....20min WTF did he forget how to zip his pants. I was literally about ready to start stopping my feet and throwing my arms around like a baby. Then he comes out with one pair that fits. I felt my entire body sigh. Dammit that shit isn't good. Now we have to go somewhere else.

Luckily Old Navy was next door so we go inside. We grab a pair of pants and shorts and head off to the dressing rooms. Okay, so it seems this is turning out a little quicker than I had thought. I sit down on the bench and he goes in. My daughter comes up to me with knuckle marks on her eye and my sons nose is beat read. I did the whole wtf is wrong with you........you don't put your hands on each other........and told them to sit down beside me. They insisted they were both just playing, but still. I sat there with my head in my hands, hunched over, elbows on my knees. I was tired, hungry and just wanted to go home.

Then a pleasantly plump lady with a crap ass attitude sits down on the same bench and says. "You look like you are having about as much fun as I am." I am not much of a talker to random people in stores, but I politely responded. "You have no idea." Then she turns and starts ripping on her daughter who had come out of the dressing room with a pair of pants on. I mean she was loud, belligerent, and just down right making a fool of herself. She was ranting about how the pants her daughter picked out were too low.

"God forbid the pants touch your belly button. I don't care if that is how they go. Pull them up a little farther." and blah blah blah........

At this point I just closed my eyes and tried some deep breaths to drown out her chicken squawking. Then the daughter goes back in and the mom turns to the attendant and proceeds to go off on a tangent about people that wear low rise jeans. "They are trashy looking. It makes there body look deformed. Like seriously deformed. I am tired of these girls wearing these types of clothes. Any one who wears them is a slut"..........ertch.......WTF did she just say.

Okay just a little background info. I only wear low rise jeans. Not because I want to show off my stomach or anything like that. (In fact I wear shirts that usually meet the top of the jeans.) I wear them, because it is what is comfortable. I don't like things around my waist. It bothers me. Anything that I wear, including my scrubs and p.j.s, get folded down to sit on my hips. It will aggravate me to no end if I wear anything around my waist.

Anyways, she proceeded to go on for another few minutes, with the attendant who was also pleasantly plump, nodding in agreement the whole time. As I was sitting there, praying Dev would hurry up before I do to this lady what my son did to my daughter, I could just feel myself getting angrier by the minute. I hate it when people judge others. I am not a slut, because of what I wear and for her to say it out loud without paying attention to who was around pissed me off. Granted she didn't know what I was wearing, but still. So finally, Dev comes out and woo-hoo the pants fit. I stood up, smoothed down my low rise jeans, and gaver her a shitty grin and walked out. I could read the look of disgust on her face and I swear if she would have said one thing, I probably would have lost it, but she didn't. I was proud of myself for handling it the way I did.

The shopping continued on for another hour and another store. By the time we got home we were all dead tired and starving, but at least it was over with.

So that is that. Kinda funny to me, but it might be lame to others.

I won't be on much today. I am in the midst of butchering one of my old Anatomy papers so that it is presentable to turn in for Bio 2. I have just run out of time and the prof said it was acceptable to turn it in. Only problem is it is a 12 page paper and she only wants 5, plus I have a lot of memorizing to do for a quiz tomorrow and a final this weekend, anyways hope you all enjoy your day!

Whats your opinion?

Okay, I am enlisting the help of my fellow myspacers, well because, you guys have always been very direct and honest with me. I have a situation that I am helping a friend with and I wanted to get your opinion on it. I am not going to give specifics on the issue, because I want what your advice would be based on the basics.

Here's the deal. The two people are together and as of today have been for quite some time. The relationship has many issues and problems with trust and so on. The female in relationship had an issue brought to her attention that made her feel uncomfortable and not respected. The female told the male about it and they discussed each others points of view and verbally agreed it would stop. It happened yet again and the male lied and said he didn't do it, someone else did it, only later to fess up that he did it. The female was hurt and repeated her feelings again and the male agreed and this time promised to stop. Well yet again the issue arose and the males defense was that you said I couldn't do this, but you didn't say I couldn't do that. Basically he found a loophole in the promise. So the female made him promise yet again not to do it and included all possible loopholes. Well you would think that it would be a end to the situation, but sadly it is not. The female has yet again been faced with this and she is really feeling as if she has been lied to since he has promised and not followed through with it. I will say that the female has had a lot of issues with the male lying to her. I am not saying that he is actually lying, but there have been incidences where it is questionable and I don't really want to get into all that. Basically she says he did, he says he didn't. I also want to say that this issue in no way involves cheating or talking to members of the opposite sex. The issue is petty in the eyes of some, but many agree with her and feel the same way. It does honestly and whole-heartedly make her feel disrespected and unloved everytime it happens though.

So whats your thoughts. Is he lying when he makes the promise knowing full well he doesn't intend on keeping it? He doesn't think it is lying, but what is it then if it isn't lying? Is it something she should just let go, because he doesn't bother to think much of her feelings on this issue? If you love someone shouldn't you want to stop the things you are doing to hurt them? What is your definition of a lie? Is a lie a lie?

If you don't feel you have much to add, I understand. I want to be able to help her with this and I just want to get other perspectives on this.

I will have a much better story to tell you either later today or tomorrow about the lady at Old Navy that basically called me a slut. It is kinda funny, so be on the look out.

Happy Tuesday!

SAVE THE APOLOGY

I am not one who is big on empty apologies. You know the ones consisting of the overused phrase "I am sorry". It just doesn't work for me. I think society has overused the phrase as a scapegoat from actually facing the realities of what it is that they actually did. It has too often been used as a quick fix. Like where the giver of the apology thinks that all they have to do is say sorry and that it is.

For me, actions speak louder than words. If you tell me you're sorry for something you did, well it just comes across as words to me. It is about the same as telling me the neighbors have a red toaster. It doesnÃ?t mean diddly to me. If I don't see the remorse or the true feelings of being sorry when apologizing, than you might as well not even waste your breath. I would much rather you not solely depend on the fact that most people expect to be forgiven, just because they said those few simple words. I want you to actually take the time to think of what it is that you are actually apologizing for. I mean are you actually sorry or are you just saying it to make nice with me? Do you really feel you did something wrong? etc......etc...... If not why admit you did?

It also goes both ways on this. I don't and will not apologize just for the hell of it. I also will not apologize, until I fully understand what I did wrong, why I did it and understand what the consequences of my actions have created. I don't do fake. Some people just want the apology for the words and really don't care too much for the meaning behind them and I won't do it. I don't care how much you feel you deserve one and how much you just want to hear those word, it will not happen.

I am tired of people devaluing words with fakeness. I try, and I say, try to live by the following:

Don't say things you don't mean and mean everything you say.

Granted no one is perfect and I often say things I don't mean, but I at least try not to do it. I think they are good words to strive to live by.

Well I don't really know where I was going with this. Its mostly gibberish, but I guess I was just in the sharing mood.

If you haven't already, please check out the latest part to the Great Novel Write of at:

http://www.thebluedoodle.com/bookoff.html

Also 2Mara and Dalectomys dual story is up and it is hilarious:

http://www.thebluedoodle.com/2anddale/2anddale.html

Its Friday Dammit!!

Well I spent all week wishing it was Friday and now it is here. I have to say that I am not as excited as I thought I was going to be. I had so many things to do and I really had hoped that I would have accomplished more than I did, but that just didn't happen. The main issue holding me back was that I have been working on a really big paper for my Gender Comm class and it has taken a lot out of me both mentally and physically.

The paper is about the oppressions that the women of Afghanistan are suffering and I have to tell you that my heart it is just sick over the whole thing. I mean I realized that there was an issue over there and I knew they were not treated right, but I had no idea just how bad it was and since I don't watch much television I had been so out of date on what was happening.

I also am confused and a little angry at the US involvement in the issue during the Russian invasions all the way up to the present. I am so disappointed that words just can't express how I feel right now. If anyone wants to read up on what I am talking about they can visit www.rawa.org. I have sent communication to them requesting more info on their perspective of the situation and find out what the best way to help would be.

Anyways. The semester is coming to the end and I have 2 weeks to catch up on homework and studying for finals. I also some how blocked it out of my mind that I have a bio 2 paper due next week. I don't even know what it has to be on. I am so disappointed in myself. I have never been this far behind. I mean my grades are not suffering, but my mental state is. I am soooo exhausted.

I am really looking forward to the 2 week break and then I am taking 2 online and one in class class next semester so hopefully that will free me up a bit and allow for me to spend more time with my family. I am reaching the end of my bachelors and that in itself will be a huge milestone for me. After that I have just 2 years and I will have my masters. Yay me. Hopefully after this I am satisfied. I can't take going back to school again. By the time I am done I will have 3 degrees, a certification and a PA license. I am such a gluten, I tell ya.

Also I don't know what is up with me but the foods or food I have been eating lately is just insane. I have literally been eating nothing but peanut M & M's for 2 days. I shit you not 2 days. Nothing else seems to look or taste that good to me and funny thing is that I rarely eat chocolate or candy. And before one of you shitbags says it, NO, I am not pregnant. I know this for a fact. I think it is just a way to compensate for the high amount of energy I have been burning and the candy seems to be a quick fix. I don't know. Maybe I will go out and get a good greasy lunch or hmmm..Nachos sound good. Oh wait, nope. Scratch that I smell pizza down the hall. I am gonna haves to get me some of that.

Hope you all have a wonderful wonderful weekend. I will stop in periodically when I take breaks from studying. Oh and I will update you when the newest edition of the doodle is up and did anyone see that the most popular blog thingy is updated to Monday? I was curious this morning to see if it was the same and it had changed.

Mad Dash Tuesday

So this morning was interesting. Like I said the kids all the kids started school today. 3 kids = 3 different schools. We all should have just called in sick. It would have been easier. I don't think the motivation was there for anyone. Chris had just pulled up to drop Dev off at the stop when his bus pulled up. Seth just layed on the floor with undwear, shirt and one sock for like 20 minutes and I had to keep going in to tell him to put his clothes on. Each time one more piece of clothing was put on. My daughter got her haircut yesterday and granted it looks absolutely effin amazing (and for 30 dollars it better damn well), but it took forever to dry and do all the styling stuff. Needless to say we left the house late and my hair was soaking freakin wet. I managed to only be about 10 minutes late dropping the other two off. I swear the ride over itself was most painful. The roads seriously look like a god damn war zone. The company that has been doing the road construction has been getting fined 1000 dollars a day for like two months or so and now they must have pulled their heads out of their asses, becuase there are trucks and heavy machinery everywhere. They have closed down what is normally a 3 lane road down to one. Traffic is so slow it is beyond aggrevating. I did good though, I didn't cuss one time or flip out at all. My lip hurts a little from biting it, but other than that I am good.

Well now that I have just wasted about 10 minutes of your time with my babbling , I think it is probably a good idea to just stop. So I will leave you with these last two things:

First: The site www.mysimplemind.com is still up and running. This is the last time I will put an effort into promoting it. Go and check it out. As always I am not asking you to vote for me, but vote for your favorites. I only promote this in support of a few of my friends that are on that list and not for myself.

Second: In case you missed it the next part of it, my story is up on www.thebluedoodle.com click below to check it out.

http://www.thebluedoodle.com/bookoff.html

Also Devil Inside's newest is up too.

http://www.thebluedoodle.com/writerpages/devilinside.html

Hope you all have a good day. I am still working on catching up with you all so bear with me.

It's Definately Monday

Yup it is definately Monday. I can feel it coursing through my veins and I am glad to report I have made it through the last week and the weekend with only minor issues. A few physical and a few psychological. Granted I am still tired as hell and everyone has taken this opportunity to give me shit, since I don't have the energy to put up a fight, but over all I am good. Beware to those shit givers when I recover. lol

We had a great time at my son's party. I don't have pictures yet, since my camera was dead and I didn't know it until it was too late, but my bro-in-law tooks some and as soon as he sends them, I will post them. I don't know maybe I will do a whole picture blog. I have never really posted many pictures of us or our life outside of myspace. I will have to think on that one.

This week is still going to be a little rough and my time will still be limited on here. All the kids are starting school and we have 3 kids in 3 different schools. Should be interesting making sure everyone gets where their supposed to be on time.

I really wish life would just give me a break. Just one. It is not to much to ask really.

Anyways so what have I missed? Anything? I know that shitbag Novak still left despite everyone's begging and pleading and Gigi disappeared too, without notice I might add. Any other crappy myspace ongoings I need to be aware of?

Oh and one last thing. 2Mara and Dalectomy are doing a very cool little jungle story on www.thebluedoodle.com next week. They write the same story from their own perspective. It is an ongoing event and I will keep you updated as to the actual publishing date. They are both really good writers and I can't wait to read their stories.

Please forgive the A.D.D. like qualities of this blog. I am not fully myself as of yet and as always..............

Happy Monday!!!!!!!

ITS ME AGAIN

So yes we are still moving. It sucks and I look like a poster child for the battered women's shelter. I still can't believe we have so much shit. Another day or so and we should be all done.

Another thing is that my little man turned 7 today and it makes me sad. He is growing up so fast. So we will be spending today and tomorrow doing the birthday thing also.

Also, for you damn people that keep deleting your accounts without telling anyone.

Stop It!! Right now DAMMIT!!

I hate when I sign on only to find I have lost someone I care about. It drives me crazy to know I have no way of contacting them. I may not get to talk to many of you beyond myspace messaging, but I still care for all you guys. I have developed a friendship with you and then when certain people just disapeer with no notice it pisses me off. I mean don't they have any respect for the people they are leaving? Did they even really care? I don't know. I could just be overly bitchy and making a big deal out of it. Chris' friend told me last night he could see 666 engraved on my forehead. I didn't even bother checking it out for myself, because I seriously wouldn't doubt it.

Anyways I am off to deal with life. If you haven't already check out the new edition of the doodle. The next part of my story and Amy's is posted if you are interested in keeping up with them.

Click below:

http://www.thebluedoodle.com/bookoff.html

Hopefully I will have some other things to write about next week that don't involve bitching. Thanks to you all for dealing with it.

Have a great weekend.

In case you were wondering

Just a little update. We (devil inside and I) are still in the process of moving. We do not, as of now, have internet access at the new place. It should be done today. So I am sure we will be back to myspacing it up shortly.

We are both beyond whooped and we still have a few days of moving and unpacking to go. If you are missing us that much, message me and I will give you my number and you can call and harass us. lol

I can tell you it will take at least a week to recover since every muscle in my body aches and I am basically a zombie. Good times.

Hopefully after this weekend I will be able to get back in touch with you guys. I have a lab on Saturday at the beach and my boy is turning 7, so once all those events are done and moving is complete. I should be back in to the swing of things.

If this blog doesn't make much sense, sorry. Bare with me, I am tired and don't want to take the time to reread it.

Happy Thursday!